I am drawn to abstract art. I like art where the color is flowing. I admire people who can render an exact image, but I have no desire to learn their skills. Nor do I want to join the "more water than paint" school of watercolorists.
I want real color. Lots of it. I want it to be abstract. I don't plan, nor do I wish I could plan.
So why is it that in my hand, paint wants to appear organized on the paper? instead of flowing waves, I get squares and circles marching in lock-step across the page. I pick a variety of colors to work with, but orange and yellow boldly rise to prominence and overpower any other color.
Years ago, I tried my hand at writing. I got several pages into a novel and discovered that it was science fiction. I do not like science fiction, I don't read science fiction, I'm not curious about it, but when my hands rested on the keyboard and I set my mind free, science fiction is what I got. I abandoned that first effort and tried again. More science fiction.
Am I just a big fraud that doesn't know her own mind?